haphazard

hmmm.

thursday nanaman, nakakatamad gumising!

e kasi, naku naman, PE nanaman mamaya..

haharap nanaman sa kahihiyan..

tsingtsingtsing, bihisan time..

"naku, wag tayu jan, diba nga CR na yan ng boys"

"gusto nyu sa LB nlan?"

"sige, tara, late na tayu"

"sus, dami tao"

tsingtsingtsing,

all set, bihis na ang lahat at paunta sa quadcourt..

"lamu ba la pa me grade sa PE"

"talaga, o cge ikaw nlan pumasok para sa akin"

"rico, ipractice mu naman aku pag-serve"

kumuha ng bola

"o jezz…"

"ei nikolits, kaw muna, kain lan me, gutom nku e"

"o sige"

"ooops, wag mu kasi jan patamain"

"dito"

"a jan ba?"

"kaya naman pala di pumapasok ang bola sayu e"

poooooooooooom!

"yey, napasok ku sa kabila"

"o diba, basta diretso lan"

"aku naman ha, pa try din"

"o sige, sakit na ng kamay ku e"

okay, start na ng game..

"rox,patabi"

"o sure

–

"nikolits, dito muna aku ha"

"naku naman, larong laro naku"

"anu ka ba naman, e aku nga sasablay nanaman mamaya"

"eto talaga, yakang-yaka naten yan!"

"naten? baka kayu, kayang-kaya nyu yan"

"eto masyadong negative, posi.. think positive"

"haha, anung posi?"

"kaya nga binago diba"

"oo na"

"o kumusta un pilay mu?"

"ayos na, naiikot ku nnga e"

"wait ha, punta lan aku dun"

"sige"

–

"nikolai, can i sit beside you?"

"of course"

"o, anu, pero talagang nalimutan mu yun tommorow is nikolai karol day?"

"e kasi nga…"

"anu?"

"e malala nnga kasi aku, tamu to?"

"o, anu yan.. galing nga sa doktor ku"

"okeiokeiokei"

"lamu ba, nakaka-awa tayu, sbi ni rico larong-laro na sya, habang tayu nagdadasal na sana walang PE"

"a, eto pa, si baby knina, nakangiti, tinanung ku kun bakit, aba,excited na daw kasi sya maglaro ng volleyball"

"abay……"

tumira si jamondo,palpak!

di namin ni cheng naiwasn di tumawa.. ang malupet pa, hagalpak si chenggay!

"eto o, bakit, magaling ba tayu?"

"e bakit ikaw, tumatawa ka din naman a"

"oo,pero…"

"o sige nnga nde na"

bola,

sa taas…wshiiiiiiing!

bumwelo si heart, naku tinamaan sa ulo

"sir, plus 1"

kitang-kita na nasaktan si heart, madaming tumawa..

nakita ku ang kalungkutan sa kanyang mga mata na tila nakapikit sa kasingkitan..

"oi, wag ka nang tumawa!"

"bakit di ba nakakatawa?"

"oo, pero, tama na"

"o sige na tatalikod naku, sabihin mu nlan pag may palapit na bola"

prrrrrrrrrtt. may panalo na!

"hala, tayu na an lalaban"

"o sinong papasok?"

–

"o, wala si rico"

"anu ba naman yun, nasaan nanaman?"

tenenenen tenen!

"kaw, kun san san ka nanaman nagpupunta"

"o nikolai, dito ka.. basta pag anjan un bola, itira mu lan"

mukha akung worried..

"o sige, basta sure service ha"

serbisyo time #1..

kapos!

"o ate, kaw na!"

serbisyo time #2..

pasok!

srbisyo time #3..

naku naman, kinapos ule, masilaw kasi!

(uy, naka-rason..hehe, pero totoo)

si cheng, sa gitna ng laro, nakatira.

one point!

o, sub na, para mgka grade na sila mitch at jezz

"o jezz dito ka na!"

wingwingwing!

"o jezz, magserve ka na!"

kabado na, tense pa..

"go jezz, diretso lan basta!"

huming ng malalim

pooooom..

pasok sa kabila, nde nasalo

out daw, pero pasok yun, alam nmen!

yey, point pra smen..

malaki yun chance na manalo kme

badtrip pa, umiiba yun rotation sa kabila..

may hindi pa nagse-serve..

asar!

pero sige..

ayos lan..

tungkol sa post na ito:

an haba-haba..

magulo!

sinu na ba un nagsasalita?

anu an gustong iparating?

may advil ka?

basta may isa aku puntos,

may isa si cheng,

may isa si jezz..

masaya na kami dun, sana kayu din..

oo, naka-rugby aku..jowk!

-kookoo. sa e-lib

it’s nice to hear that people affirm you on what you were saying. Thanking you for opening their eyes on certain things. Helping them big time without you being noticed..

I’m thanking the Lord for letting me be His instrument inspite of the unworthiness..

-kookoo

08.24.06

lately,  empathy always visits me.

-pompom cried and shared her deep hurts about a person she thinks crushes her credibility

-ely shared about his problem regarding why he used to go home so late

-kah resigned as a writer at our school publication

-honey belle__ she is so quiet a while ago(which is new to me, we used to laugh and laugh but kanina..so quiet.) before leaving the room i saw her crying.. after the break i saw her still crying

-byron was pissed off by a classmate regarding yfc thingy

-mark t. was so quiet too.as i asked him if he wanted to join yfc, he asked "sasaya ba ku jan?"

what is happening?

what is happening to me?

i always feel what other people feel that i almost………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..

blahblah

-kookoo.

so sad.

8.22.06

kanina PE nanaman..

kanina ku pa ni-wish na umulan, para basa ang court..

alam ku kasi na papalpak nanaman aku naun kase every other day lan an pulso ku..

gaya din ng nangyari saken sa tennis clinic..

haaay, sana wag matuloy..

alam ku din kasi na kahit panu, may tiwala na sken groupmates ku..

at ayaw ku na aasa sila sa wala..

ayun, pero natuloy e..

pero mag-o-officiate lan daw group nmen..

okay, makakapagrebyu aku..wahoo!

habang lahat silang busy na nakatayo at nanonood, aku andun sa gilid..

pinipilit magrebyu..

di din maiwasan talikuran ang pagpanood ng laro,

kahit anung mangyari mata ko’y nakatuon..

may magagagaling..

may hindi..

pero kahit anu pa man, masayang maglaro, nakita ku yun sa kanila..

nang nanalo na ang isang group, biglang may pumito..

o, group3 naman..

di ku pinansin..

sino ba un mga un?

nang biglang nakita ku na lahat ng kagrupo ku……….

haaaaaaaa??? tayo ba ang group3 natanong ku nlan..

oo, kme nga..

at pinasok aku.. ayaw kasi ni pom..

unang tira ni tralala, tsk, pumalya..

di bale, magaling naman sya,mababawi din..

ayun, minsan lamang kami, minsan humahabol..

KAHIT WALA AKONG GINAGAWA, OO! WALA!

nakatayo lan aku..

mya mya, o, nikolits, kaw na titira..

nginitian ku nlan sila..

fight! kapos, di lan man dumikit sa net.. pero ayos lan..

sa gitna ng laro, aba, pabagsak sken ang bola, alam ku..

ayan na sya.. walang pumapansin..

naisip ku nlang tapikin..

wahaha.. naabot ku at binuhay ni tralala.. ayos!!

at di na naibalik ng kabila..

napasabi si cheng "galing nun"

at masaya na aku nun..

yipeeeeeeeee!

may isang puntos akung na-contribute..

sabi ni pom, gusto daw nya pumasok sa court, pumayag naman aku.. syempre..

nang ayan na, magse-serve na si pom..

biglang tinawag aku..

sub daw..

wow, galing ku naman..kahit panu may tiwala talaga sken ang mga kagrupo..

patakbo akung pumasok..

at ang buhok ku, nililipad ng hangin..

wow, grand entrance ang setting..

wala, masaya aku sa pagtawag nila sken..

gusto ku lan i-share..

at gusto ku din malaman na natak=lo kme ng dalawang puntos lan.. sayang!!

moral lesson:

dapat sa kahit anung sitwasyon, wag tayong magpapabaya..

lalu kun may mga kasama tayu na kahit panu, nagtitiwala at umaasa..

hindi lan sa balibol..kundi sa buhay!!

kanina,

nakatayo lan ule me..

habang asa gitna ng laro..

gusto ku man tumira para makatulong..

di sapat an kakayahan ku..

PAGULO LAN AKU KUN SAKALI..

pero……..

dumating an panahon na kailangan ku magserbisyo..

whew! sumabit sa net pero pasok..

walang tiwala an lahat kaya hindi pinansin ang bolang aking tinira..

wahaha!

puntos lugod sa grupo ku..

at naka-anim na serbisyo aku..

lahat pasok! (humble lan aku)

nabilib nalang si rico..

napa-congratulate si baby..

haha..

masasabi ku na may malaki akung natulong kahit madami aku sa tayo nun una..

waharharhar.. wagi!!

moral lesson:

si dapat binabalewala ang mga taong masasabi nating may kahinaan..

dahil di natin alam kun minsan, malaki din pala ang matutulong nun para satin..

-nikolits8.7.06

pagabi sa kulambo kape

            Mixed emotion. That was the emotion I felt before we begin the activity. Being absent-minded that time pushed me to be the first in the line. I just said “edi sa unahan.” Before we went down, we’ve decided to assign Russel as our leader and Fred as his assistant. That made me kind of bothered. I asked myself “Is Russel dependable enough?” I started to tell my feelings in a joke manner such as “pakisabi nalang sa mga parents ko sobrang mahal ko sila(LOL!)” I never failed to say “Russel ha”, he just said, “Trust lang kasi” and I entrusted myself. We are on a group anyway and Fatima is one of my group mates, I’m in between them so, he’ll surely take care of us.

                        As we started to walk we were on a choo-choo setting. We hold each other’s shoulders so that we are all attached and no one will be left. Being on the front, I held the leader’s hand, we walked all together.

                        I must avow that both the leader and the assistant did their best to assist us all. It’s just many students who saw us asked if why were we blindfolded? What were we doing? Blahblah. That’s why when they explain they have lost their focus on instructing us what to do. What I hate about our leader was his attitude that he kept us always in a hurry. He wanted us to move so fast. It’s like we were on a race. He must think of our situation, we were of different conditions. I must suggest that he must be full of empathy that time.

                        One of the most important senses is the sense of sight. The activity deprived that sense and that was a big problem for us. But we still had reached our goal because we thought of tactic that would keep us (the blindfolded) together, and that was to hold each other’s shoulders. Another problem was we kept on talking and talking that sometimes we do not hear the leader’s instruction anymore.

                        This odyssey was really enjoyable. It made me realize that I really have to take care of my eyes. I shouldn’t take it for granted. Trust is also a major need in our life. We should have trust on the hands that hold us. Not only for those who could see but everyone, even to those who couldn’t. We must trust ourselves also. Sensitivity also keeps us being on the right track. We must be extra-sensitive to our environs and to other people.

-kookoo.08.07.06

astig date..notice!

kanina, change group an setting..

naiwan yun mga patapon..

nakakalungkkot dahil isa aku dun..

madaming umiyak, pero bakit pa aku makikiuso?

tinawa ku na lang kahit di nman dapat..

inampon aku ni rico, baby, etc..

yey, may groupmates na aku..

      Ytalia Nikolai S. Moreno

      “At the society of youth, Youth For Christ (YFC) is the melting point of all evils. If you have survived in YFC, definitely you can survive anywhere.”

      That was a text message I have received from our senior sister in YFC-FEU, an arduous statement that has to be proved by every YFC member.

      I am a daughter with strict parents. They aren’t so permissive unlike any other parents. I used to compare them with other origins then. I grew up having a large dread on them doing things that I think isn’t proper to do. They tried to discipline us in a nice way. But as a child, I misinterpreted those and tend to exaggerate simple things. I thought they were putting shackles on me. I thought they want me to be more like them and be less like myself. Being the middle child, I had the middle child syndrome. I felt that they don’t see me as much as they see my brothers.

      I had gone through rebellious stage. It started on my fourth grade in elementary. I did not do good in school, did a lot of stuffs that is not supposedly done, did bully things, lost respect on some authorities and had the wrong kind of friends.

      Being on a tropa is a cool stuff. You have friends whom you can turn to if you’re pissed off with this damn life. They are there when you need cool advices. They are there to offer you what you want. They are there to teach you things, which they believe, can help you forget your problems.

      There was a time that we decided to vandalize the new painter restroom of our school in elementary. We did it using permanent black markers. We wrote bad things about our school, schoolmates, and even teachers. That was the most controversial topic that time. We felt so proud with ourselves, imagine we have done a large controversy on a peaceful Catholic school without being caught. We laughed as what demons do. We felt no guilt, we were proud of ourselves big time. Darkness filled our hearts that time.

      My parents are active Couples For Christ leaders. In fact, they were the coordinator of CFC-Singles For Christ that time. They were so bothered on what was happening to me. They tried approaching me but I didn’t listen to what they wanted to impart or I simply refused.

      They forced me to join the YFC youth camp. I obeyed. At first, I found the camp so boring, lifeless and such a waste of time. Eventually, as the camp proceeded I started to enjoy, started to mingle with other YFCs and realized few important things. I somewhat had the time to ponder if why d I acted so badly. I tried talking to God in the silence of my heart. As he replied, I listened.

      On the last day of the camp, they invited our parents to fetch us up and gave a time for us to talk about our misunderstandings and grudges. We cried, talked and asked for forgiveness. I came to understand them. They were just being over-protective because they treasure me a lot. I am the unica hija and they were just so concerned. We came home with gladness. We have gone back to the basics after the camp. I became responsible and loving again. I became extra-sensitive yet understanding.

      The family’s closeness revived again. We feel blissful almost every moment. We learned to value each one of us.

      YFC restored us. Up to now. I’m an active affiliate. I do a lot of good things since I joined. I do well in school. I establish good relationship on my family, relatives, and friends. I sort of engage myself in sports and writing.

      I consider this stage as one the most crucial stages. Youths tend to be rebellious, curious, unreserved, and easily tempted. But in YFC, those are abstained. We evangelize youth without bombarding them with Christian jargons but instead letting God be renowned with enjoyment.

      Currently, I’m serving YFC in FEU. I was assigned to be part of the YFC-FEU Executive Committee as VP for Documentation this school year. I enjoy taking pictures that will prove how God works through every YFC member.

      I attend our prayer meeting every Wednesday at the Chapel’s Sacristy. I sometimes facilitate assemblies and use the time to share jokes to keep us all laugh. I believe that I have to use the talents that God gave me, that is to bring laughter to everyone. So I make full use of it if possible.

      Sometimes I feel quite sad because YFC is not recognize in FEU as an organization and so it becomes one of the reasons why we have limited members and we have limited people to evangelize. We are having our meeting in a small place that’s why we couldn’t invite as many as God wants. Being on the chapel also hinders us t perform our activities well because we have to stay in our low voices. We couldn’t shout our praises because others might think of us as zanies because again, the religious organization is not known. Others might not understand us.

      How I wish, someday, the school will help Youth For Christ. Give us the privilege to take care of the students who are too fond of staying on the darkness. Give us he chance to be known so that we’ll evangelize those youth. I want to prove them that all can be changed if we let God be in our hearts. As my own experience, I believe that this organization is consecrated by the Lord to help youths released on their dark worlds.

      In YFC, we can surpass every challenges because we lift everything to God and all we desire is to help every youth experience what we had experience. How God works, how he really works to those who believe in HIM.__yn☺