haphazard

okay okay..

the day was just as ordinary as yesterday..

and as ordinary as yesterday’s yesterday..

that was what i have thought but then i have recalled something that rico had taught me..

it was how to draw accurately..

i have tried this before but i was quite unsuccessful because i was too ambitious.. i tried drawing a portrait.. and because i am really not good at drawing(though i am artsitic when it comes to crafts) i have failed to meet my expectations, my high-flying expectancy..feeling kasi!!

but this time, i have tried looking for a kookoo-look-alike cartoon and tried drawing it..

and I’M NOT A LOSER THIS TIME.. i made it.. not perfect yet delighting on my part… wee..woohoo..

uh, shadowing is a bit complicated that’s why….the carabao cannot fly, that’s why…uh?!

okay, if you wanna try this just observe what i did.. its easy as algebra..huwaaaat? i mean its easy as physics… arghhh.. okay time for me to sleep i guess.. my mind is getting dimmed now..ukie?! hey, who turned off the vandamn light? i’m still doing something here….BRAGGING! ahaha..

vandamn– yeknow, jean claude.. argh! hahaha!

1.    kunwari insekto ka, ano ka? >> firefly.. pero pag hating gabi
nagiging kapre ako…ha?!

2. kunwari flower ka ano ka? >> Bougainvillea.. para makalat sa
paligid lagi.. o diba, kororpul ang kalat!

3. kunwari cartoon character ka, cno ka?>> tigger..para magpapabounce-bounce lang everyday..at least hindi boring gaya ngayon..

4. kunwari di ka pinoy, anung nationality mo?>> spanish.. parang yung tinapay lang..

5. kunwari last text na ng buhay mo,cnung tetext mo?>> abay si dear syempre.. marami pa akong hindi nasasabi..at marami pa akong itatanong.. tulad ng sino ako? anong ginagawa ko dito? si sisa ba ako? asan si basilio? mga ganun..

6. kunwari actor/actress ka, cno kah?>> sandra b.. para ms.congeniality…world peace! ü*ting*ü

7. kunwari bayani ka ng pilipinas, saan ka may rebulto?>> sa phil mental syempre! bayani ng mga baliw… wahaha! mabuhay ang mga baliw..mabuhay!

8. kunwari parte ka ng katawan, ano ka?>> eyes.. para bintana ng kaluluwa ang drama..tsaka para busog sa muta!

9. kunwari d ka pinanganak nung year na pinanganak ka, kelan ka pinanganak?>> 1991..aba bakit naman 91? pwede ding 2000..january1 ha.. para iskolar agad.. hindi na kelangang magaral ng mabuti para makuha ang scholarship..

10. kunwari prof ka sa school nyo, ano ang tinuturo mo?>> psych.. para masakit din lagi ang ulo ko sa mga estudyante ko kahihirit ng "yey, maganda si ma’am wlang quiz"

11. kunwari presidente ka ng pilipinas, pandak ka ba? >> abay hindi.. naimbento ang growth enhancers..hanggang kasing tangkad ko
na si balingit! tapos kakaririn ko na ang pagbabasketball..

12. kunware alak ka, ano ka?>> mompo.. para tagaytagay with the
holy..

13. kunwari damit ka, anu ka?>> guitor shirt.. yun brown na may
print na shoes.. peborit ku yun e..para damit na,sapatos pa.. san ka pa?

14. kunwari merong may crush sayo, ano gagawin mo?>> i’ll say hello and will interrogate.. mayaman ba sya and all that..wahaha.. if yes, abay magpasa na siya ng application letter..haha.. badgirl!

15. kunwari hindi ka anak ng tatay mo, kanino ka anak?>> my mom’s.. hmm,logic e no.. 1.25 aku dun…

16. kunwari callboy ka, san ka nakalarga?>> uh, maliban sa babae aku..uh, hindi ako papayag na ganyan nalang ang buhay..suicide nalang!

17. kunwari athlete ka, anung sport mo?>> lawn tennis habang nagsi-swimming..simultaneous yan ha!

commercial: teka may joke ako..

sabi ng isang estudyante sa swimming prof: "sir, pwede po bang mag cyclingshorts? nakakahiya po kasi kung naka swimsuit lang e.."

sagot ni prof: "abay oo hija, pwedeng pwede..magdala ka na rin ng mountain bike mo"

bow!

larga…

19. kunwari puno ka, ano ka:>> world tree..weh?! narra.. okay din pine tree.. para napagnanasaan putulin pag pasko.. merry christmas..weee!

20. kunwari member ka ng banda, anung instrument mo?
>> maracas..cool! pwede din yung lagayan ng polbos na ang laman e bigas..mas cool yun..atleast when you get hungry may mailuluto ka…grr

21. kunwari tataY ka, ilan anak mo?>>3.. kasing bait ko lahat..wwwaaaah, end of the world!

22. kunwari si michael jackson ka,aamin ka ba?>> hindi..bading ako kung sakali..

23. kunwari, syota mo si Beckham,ipagmamalaki mo ba siya?>> umigad.. oo naman.. pero sana writer nalang siya, mas magiging proud ako..pakelam ko naman sa mga into sports, mabaho lang ang paa nila..at least pag writer…uhhh..anu nga ba?

24. kunwari di ka grumadweyt sa course mo, anong course mo?
>> bsnursing pero mas okay ang fine arts.. para hindi sakitin..tsaka para…. para okay lang mukhang rakistamg dugyot..bawal kasi yun sa nursing e..haha!

25. kunwari disease ka, anu ka?>> galis..shoshyal na shoshyal diba..aw aw aw!

26. kunwari martyr ka, pano ka pinatay?
>> garote effect..ughhh ughhh ughhh..

27. kunwari painting ka, sinong nagpaint sayo?
>> nemo..uy crush…dati! haha! pero utang na loob, nakakasuka na siya
ngayon..haha! ah, take note..hindi sya un isda..tao yan! kahit mikhang kwago..

28. kunwari kinasaL ka san mo gusto?>> sa kapilya..argh!

29. kunwari robber ka, anung ninakaw
mo?
>> pera sa bangko..tapos pag nakuha ku na yun pera, bibilhin ko na yung bangko para may sarili na akong bangko..o diba, antalino.. kasing talino ng ipis na nahulog sa washing machine..

30. kunwari isinabuhay ang buhay mo, sino gaganap?
>> si gloria romero, para bagets!

31. kunwari nasa fairytale ka, cno k?
>> sleeping beauty.. para lagi paring
tulog..ü masaya..cool.. easy easy lang.. may kiss pa..diba, san ka pa? e kung si cinderella inaalila..si snow white parang naengkanto lang..okay na si sleeping beauty..sleeping na beauty pa..anoooo? grrr..

so yun.. masyadong makabuluhan ang blog na ito.. a oo… matulog ka nalang ytalia nikolai at siya!

i really want you to stay…

there are things left unstated…

yet i can do NOTHING…

however of the importance…   

and we both know that it’s better for me to keep wordless and still…

because if not…it might just distort the whole thing—TORTURE

“I’m a failure, I suck!” I said myself.

My days are getting so boring and mind-numbing. I’m so tired of doing nothing, if not too tired thinking of the things which confuse and scare me.

All I can do is release such by blogging. I even thought that writing a blog could help. I expected that people would tell me that I’m not a failure and all that. Hmmm, flood of spur, outpouring motivations.

I was too excited to see the newest blog comment and to my surprise… tada!!

“failure ka nga talaga…kasi hindi ka na namamansin….. sabagay…ganyan naman ang mga tao eh….. pag nasa sariling langit na nila……nahihirapan na silang lumingon sa lupa……” –m*

That made me upset big time. I am really having a hard time dealing with my concerns and yet there are people who would just dig some soil and bury you there. Some whom you thought would be understanding and would lift you up on the surface.

I even can’t understand the lines he had just said that people were like that, when they were in their own happiness they already fail to see the things happening beneath it…

Do I seem happy with the things that I have just said? That I am a failure… and worst that I suck? I don’t think so…

I can’t understand the world’s turning motion… and worst I can’t understand my own… so what should I expect? LOSER!

I am currently on a one h*** of a critical stage.  Little of my friends know what I’m feeling right now. Uh, they know what I’m feeling but they can’t weigh how heavy it is. I know, but still they don’t just say things which they believe to be right because they know that no matter how persistent they are I will stick to what I feel and understanding and acceptance are the things which will make my bleeding impede.

I hate him for that. I hate him for letting me feel that I am a big dumb somebody who failed, who fails, who will fail—FAILURE.

Yeah, I fail for expecting the wrong thing on the wrong person… but this proves that I have the spirit not to hate the person himself because no matter what happens, I am a friend and should understand not just my own alarms but others as well.

Haaaay.. hope I will feel better soon.ü

  i’m a failure                           

                                                                        i suck!

Cr*p. This is what i hate about not blogging. Things, things and things are all inside my head and begging to be unshackled. Shocks, as much as i wanted to let them all out once, i just can’t. They are plenty while i am ohm, alone… yeah, while i am so alone.

But let me unchain one of them.

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It was last Friday. I opened my eyes with a gloomy forecast. I felt bad. For three years, the last Friday of the school year was the most exciting day for me. I would greet the day cheerfully but i guess that Friday was different. Everything is h***. Aside from failing to go over all the lessons that i had to, my sleep was not mahambing [mahimbing]. And not mahambing sleep results a horrific day for everyone<exagge>.

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Everything seems to be of different phase next school year. Everything that i was enjoying this sy, it appears like, they will be all gone..

DORM and DORMMATES

I am already comfortable staying at my spooky-looking dormitory (where religious statues are found) with my why-is-bamboo-not-included-in-the-reggae-concert room mate who laughs and understands to almost everything i say whether stupidly or seriously stated…

BESTGUYBUDDY

Rico, my college guy best friend (who shares how baho his fart is and does everything to cheer me up during c***** days) is planning to transfer a school or if not change a new block because of that b******* s***** **r*******…

EVAPORATED SOLID BLOCK

Unionism. Most of us will be on strike because they hate the management of the block. The they-are-so- domineering blahblahs… Where is the sturdiness now? The solidity? I was too proud of us but then, everything is doomed…

THE PRINCE TO TEXAS

There will be no goodmorningdear messages (which somewhat hold my happiness) anymore next sy.

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Now i understand why my eyes tend to release tear drops automatically… without any command, without any order… because they feel and know what they must do… ay ay!

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and me, thinking about sad things again..

i think i must sleep now…and wake up no more…to get a glass of water in the middle of my sleep… but  surely will tommorow..

anu daw?? ewan! matulog ka na at siya!

happy

masaya

                                                                maogma

syaks.. what happned to my oh-so-rakista bangs?

ahuhu.. this is one of a heck stupid mistake..

i have to wait for a month.. huhu.. sorry hair, i never meant for you to look chakaness.. huhu.. please forgive me, i won’t do that again… =/

I can feel the pressure
It’s getting closer now
We’re better off without you…

That was my song for the upcoming physics exam this week… I really thought this week would be so back-breaking and all… It’s like I’m already grieving for my next sinko as early as now (though I very much improved on the said subject)…

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I was so sad last week. I almost fail to enjoy the weekend (but thanks to kikay for the warm hospitality, with matching lechon, napa-aga ang birthday ko..haha)..

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I got dos in physics. Si jez, 1.75…Hurrah! That’s more than what I expected… But there are things which bother me right now. Since I have anticipated, that I would get a low grade I didn’t exert much effort on almost all of my subjects.. hindi naman ako magiging iskolar kahit anong hirap ko, kaya enjoy nalang..

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BUT I WAS SO WRONG! I now hear ChitoMiranda of parokya ni Edgar singing this line to me “aking napatunayan na nasa huli ang pagsisisi, para bang gusto kong umiyak pero para saan pa wala naming magagawa”..

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SYAKS, SKOLARSHIP NA "SIGURO"

SANA

..Haaaay… sadness!

o my, i’m normal

i’m not autistic but sometimes i must admit that i seem to be like that.

I was cheated! I really though that the concert was still sponsored by rock ed, but sad to say, it wasn’t.

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That hiphop greg from tate

I was so inspired to love my country more because of him. He’s from the states and decided to stay here because according to him he wants to see the country rise from its not-so-good disposition. he even made some rap for the Philippines, Filipino and GK.

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that oble guy

many thought that i was OP a while ago. its not that, i just chose to be alone and enjoy the songs of the band playing(though its really not enjoying, i tried my very best to,swear!) haha!.. but that oble guy kept on bugging me.. nweiz, pagbigyan nalang..

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nonesense

i gained nothing from being alone.. that was not the right time for fake autism.. haaaay..

and confirmed, nobody deserves to be alone.. though one would say that he’s better off alone blahblahblah, hindi rin… HINDI TALAGA..